Urge

Oh shit! I have been reading this blog by a waiter on the net and is being tortured by my urge to blog also. My problem is, I don't have anything to blog about, yet. Today is a holiday, and I suppose this is the week when Noel will be up in a day shift after a week of night shift. Yeah, damn. I can only blog about Noel again. Well, that's the only thing on my mind right now. He is the only one on my mind right now. I have been anticipating for the start of this new week, because as I have "researched" it seems like they rotate shifts weekly. Last week, as I conclude, is a night shift for Noel, so this week should be his day shift. As always, I look forward to this kind of schedule of his, but I know that I only have chances. I have chances to see him, maybe make small talks with him, hopefully be able to bond with him a little, but I only have chances. Circumstances are indefinite. But I still look forward for these chances. At least, I know where to look for him, and I know when. It does not deliver a 100% guarantee but I'd take chances, how small they may seem. Fuck! This crush thingy is making my head hurt a little. But I assure you, at least for now, this is the headache that I want to experience. Why? Because a single smile from him, will make any bad day of mine a whole lot better, if not perfect. Damn! I miss those smiles, along with his set of twinkling eyes. *sigh*