And Again

I have been watching you from afar. Miles and miles afar. I can only look at you from a distance, and a great distance at that. I have always enjoyed your presence, satisfied with just your presence. It have been years ago since I first saw you and I already liked you. I was so fond of you ever since but time changed and suddenly we were separated for so long. It is only recently that I thought of you again, I do not understand perfectly but it suddenly happened. I guess you have always been in my heart and was summoned by my conscious, unconsciously. I looked for you, and I looked so hard. Then I found you. When I laid my eyes on your face once again, after so many years, I have realized that nothing has really changed. I still admire you. And that nobody has taken your place in my heart. While watching you, yet again, from afar, I found myself falling deeper and deeper to you. I would be drawn into your eyes and get drowned helplessly. I get hypnotized by your stares and charmed with your words. My heart palpitates every time you smile and I know that I want you to be mine. I tried to know more about you since I haven’t seen you for a long time. Guess how my heart broke when while gathering some information about you I saw a picture. A picture of you, holding hands, with your wife. I was crushed. I kind of expected it already though that you are married. But I guess I had held my hopes up that maybe, by some miracle, you are still single. That is even though I am sure that it will never be the two of us. While looking at these pictures, I cannot help but think that she's lucky to have you. I would die just to be in her shoes even for just a day. Oh, I am really crushed this time. I am desperate to be with you. I want those eyes of yours to look at mine, deeply. I want those warm smiles and charisma to work on me, and me alone. But I know it is not possible as you don't even know me. So yeah, it may sound stupid but that's the truth. My heart has been broken again… by Chow Yun Fat.