I will never be enough

I know I am not the best. And I know that I never will be. I'm doing my best but my best is never good enough. I will always be compared with my friends and I will always fall short. Whilst my friends are very different from me, they may be much better than me. And yet, there's only one thing that I did that they have not done. I never left the family, not for a better opportunity not even for love. They will always compare me with my friends and they will always prevail. But what they have not realized is that I have sacrificed myself for them. I turned down what supposed to be a new chapter in my life for them and yet it is not enough. I am not good enough for them despite all. I will never be enough. Or maybe it's just wrong of me to forsake my own happiness and stayed with them instead of living my own life, calling my own shots?!