Where?

Too many things to write about, but I don't know where to start. I just want to write and write until I finish what I am supposed to finish. Until I let everything out. I do not intend to rant about useless things. But I want to release every single thing from my mind if it will lighten my burden. So many things have transpired and I cannot seem to find my first landing. I cannot say that I'm confused, more of I am disheartened of the difficulty I am now facing and some more that I will soon face. I do not know what to make of myself. Of my life. Without her, I do not know what to become of me. She has been my strength, my motivation, my purpose. When she's gone, I might as well go with her. I cannot afford to lose another person in my life, and yet I am bound to lose one. If only I can exchange my life with her, I would. If I can "transfer" a few years of my life, I would not think twice of doing it. I just want to spend a few more years with her. Without her, I wouldn't find the purpose of my existence.